Monday, November 17, 2008

ugh. giant headache all day from lack of carbs.

am feeling fat in general, and my will-power is next to nil cuz i think it's nearing that time of the month. Too much information? WELL TOO BAD!!! HAHAHAHA

have been cursing this diet in my head all day, as well as cursing the students for needing so much of my time for retakes. i am definitely a grumpy gus.

here's the menu for the day:

breakfast: 1 egg over-easy (I ran out of spinach)
lunch: carl's jr. lettuce-wrapped burger (*sigh* I really need to go grocery shopping so I can stop eating these)
dinner: my will power gave out, and i had a bbq pork wrap from costco. It was delish!

I felt really guilty for having had carbs, so I got off my duff at around 9:30 and went to work out (sets/reps/weight):

squats: 2/10/95
overhead dbell raises: 2/10/15 (my arms are so much weaker than they used to be...)
rows: 2/10/60
lunges: 2/10/2x20
swiss ball curls: 2/10/bw
push-ups: 2/10/full-body

I am a little sore today, which is a good thing. I am at home waiting for my new 52" Sharp aquos tv to be delivered, and then I am going to go for a swim in our community pool. It is freakin' hot for November this year, and I may as well take advantage of it.

i'm hoping the physical exertion will make me less of a (whiny) bitch. we'll see...

The ish really hit the fan for the rest of the week.

I didn't get a chance to update my blog, and now I don't remember exactly what I ate. I will say I was good up until Friday (I remember i had a caesar salad from Wendy's for lunch on Thursday, and a southwest salad from Jalepno Grille on Friday), and then Saturday hit...

Tong and Sawamura got evacuated from their home mid-morning on Saturday because of the fires, so they left me alone to staff their interns as well as mine in primary care and ocular disease for a few hours until the front desk could find somebody to help cover. I didn't have time to go buy a carb-free lunch (worked straight through lunch), so I caved and had a granola bar one of the students gave me. By the time I got home, I was ravenously hungry, and the only thing we had on-hand was ramen/instant noodle packets (I couldn't stand the thought of eating another carl's jr. lettuce-wrapped burger) and grapes. OMG, I really miss fruit. Fresh, cold, juicy, sweet fruit. It makes me question how good this diet is if I can't eat nature's candy.

Sunday was friend's thanksgiving in LA:

breakfast: 1 egg, over easy
lunch: grilled fish from California Fish Grill (haha, pretty obvious choice, I guess)
dinner: turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, pecan pie, creamed corn, sweet potato pie, wine... you name it, I had it. :)

Now, it's back to cutting carbs. This diet is very inconvenient when emergencies happen... need to be better about planning ahead (but who knew there were gonna be fires in Brea??), because not eating at all is not an option. Ppl with more will power may be able to do it, but not i.

day 9 (tuesday)

breakfast was nonexistent today, because I had errands to run, and just plain forgot: a slice of cheese.

lunch (w/ a family friend): carl's jr. guacamole burger, sans bun (I really need to stop eating these, but a salad just didn't sound like it would cut it after I'd pretty much fasted all morning)

dinner: cucumber and chicken stir fry (leftovers)

so I've been obsessively weighing myself every morning in the hopes that all this pain is be worth it. A couple of days ago, I was down a pound, and I was feeling very lean (have you ever noticed how your body feels when you're burning calories even when not doing anything? You can actually feel the burn). Today, the pound i lost over the last week or so is back, and i'm not feeling quite so lean. There must've been some hidden carbs in what I ate yesterday. :(

and all this is happening the day before my weekly weigh-in for the biggest loser competition! I was hoping to be able to post a loss two weeks in a row (which hasn't happened thus far). boo-hoo.

guess I'll have to hit up the gym tonight to boost the burn.

day 8 (Monday)

breakfast: spinach and egg scramble, 2 sausage patties

lunch: reduced-fat southwest salad from trader joe's, minus the black beans *sniff*
1 container of spicy ranchero-styl egg white salad (packed with protein, pretty few calories)
peanuts (I think I OD'd on these, cuz I felt kind of sick afterwards)

dinner: southwest salad from stonefire grill (lettuce, nappa cabbage, avocado, onions, jicama, bell pepper, tri-tip) and roasted chicken breast -- i didn't realize i ate two different kinds of southwest salads until now... i am getting repetitive.

snack: string cheese

Day 7

feeling refreshed after 10 hours of sleep (I was in bed by 10 pm last night... I am still not a loser)!

breakfast: spinach and egg scramble, sausage patty (this is becoming default meal for me, but it's very tasty and satisfying)
lunch: sausage wrapped in lettuce, with a little bit of onion (bbq with church peeps... I brought mac and cheese, and veggie salad... it's getting easier to turn down carbs).
dinner: cucumber and chicken stir fry, no rice -- something's missing... but I managed.

Day 6 (Saturday, November 8)

had clinic at 8 am, so breakfast was next to nil: a couple of slices of cheese
lunch: carl's jr. low carb burger (again... i'm going to have to stop eating these)
dinner: 1 egg over easy, a couple of sausage patties

passed up on going out for drinks with friends because
1. I was too tired and lazy to drive up to Pasadena after work
2. even if I had the energy/motivation to drive the 50 miles that google maps said it would take, I wouldn't have been able to drink anything. I would've just been standing around staring at ppl, so I decided to sit at home alone with alfie and watch the boob tube. I am not a loser, I am not a loser, I am not a loser...

Day 5

the challenge of eating out with people who love carbs and dessert, summarized in two words: it's hard.

here's today's menu:

breakfast: spinach and egg scramble, with a couple of sausage patties
lunch: chopped salad from corner bakery (lettuce, avocado, bacon, chicken, bleu cheese)
dinner: seared tuna over a bed of greens, bowl of miso soup
snack: string cheese, walnuts

my friends ordered this toast thing at dinner that looked freakin' awesome. Two 2-inch thick slices of toast, hollowed out, and filled with ice cream, topped with cubes made of the center of the toast.

it doesn't sound so great, but trust me. It looked dericious.
damn this diet... :P

Day 4

I'm finding that late at night, i really really really want carbs.

Didn't get to post yesterday because I was pooped.

Here's what i ate:

Breakfast: spinach and egg scramble, with a couple of sausage patties (incidentally, I HAVE been eating the omega 3 eggs... I just didn't know that's what we've been buying... silly ed)
Lunch: grilled chicken caesar salad from panera. I am proud of myself cuz i didn't eat the croutons, and saved the french baguette for my bro.
dinner: spinach and tofu salad, with some rotisserie chicken from costco, caesar dressing.
snack: walnuts

Phew.
this has been a somewhat tough week. I should also add that I managed to decline a delicious-looking birthday cake for a friend at bible study. Man, that was tough. I dunno how I'll be able to turn anything down at thanksgiving!

Day 3

it's getting a little easier... but maybe because i'm eating such fatty foods:

breakfast: scrambled egg with spinach and sausage patty
lunch: low carb six dollar burger from carl's jr.
dinner: cheese and sandwich meat (I was still full from lunch)
snack: walnuts

had a nice headache through the afternoon, but that was after watching some students practice SLE through a teaching tube, so I can't tell if the headache was from that or from the diet. Tomorrow will be a good indicator.

Day 2

today's menu:

breakfast: scrambled egg with steak strips
snack: cottage cheese (I didn't know this was a nono)
lunch: 3 sausage patties with cheese melted over them
snack: walnuts
dinner: steak strips sauteed with tomatoes, onions and spinach

I complained this much about not having a cheat day cuz I miss milk and fruit, and got the smackdown. :( I will keep my bitching to myself from now on. Haha, or at least to those who are sympathetic (aka Paul is an insano slave driver, but i'm sure he will get results).

Day 1

1: the number of days I've been on the Paul V. version of the TNT diet. Wanted fries with lunch, and candy while at work, but I managed to keep myself from partaking both times.
It's been a little bit up and down. I am def missing the carbs, but I feel pretty good so far. I think the main challenge to this will be eating out with ppl. Went to lunch with Bobby, and we both ordered salads.

Here's today's menu:

Breakfast: 2 eggs over-easy w/ tabasco sauce
Snack: 1 stick of string cheese
Lunch: Kaasomething Kobb salad from Islands, with half the dressing (grilled chicken, bacon, avocado, bleu cheese, tomato, and lettuce of course)
Dinner: miso soup with leafy green Asian vegetable (miso, water, tofu, veggies) and 4 meatballs from costco (I forget the brand, but they are tasty!)
Snack: 1 stick of string cheese, walnuts