You know that part in "Finding Nemo" when Nemo's dad gets really depressed and wants to give up? Dory comes along and pulls him out of his funk. here's the video clip if you can't remember
I feel like Nemo's dad. The past couple of weeks have been pretty rough (back-to-back 12 hour days), and I'm starting to lose the mental toughness that I need just to get through. My energy level has been pretty low, and I haven't been sleeping as much as I would like to because I have a hard time going straight to bed when I get home from a long day at work. I end up spending a few hours farting around on the internet or watching something mindless on TV to unwind, which probably keeps me up later than I should be considering I have to turn around and do it all again the next day. It's a downward spiral.
I need a Dory to come tug me along. Since I don't have a personal Dory (aside from Kina) to keep that happy "Just Keep Swimming" attitude alive, I've been focusing on automating work outs. Giving myself the opportunity to even consider not working out is opening up Pandora's box, which will ultimately lead to fatness and guilt at letting myself go. Signing up for classes ahead of time each week has really helped a lot. Knowing that Coach Rob is getting up at the butt-crack of dawn (when he has a baby at home who is less than a year old and probably isn't getting much sleep himself) just to coach me because I said I would be there keeps me showing up.
The Crossfit Irvine website used to have little sayings like "because I want my name on the board" posted, explaining why people not only do Crossfit, but why they push as hard as they do. My "why do I Crossfit?" lately has been "because Coach is waiting for me."
I haven't necessarily been kicking ass in the WODs, but I'm giving myself points for just showing up. I'm hoping ass-kicking will come later. I'm also learning to be ok with that. I'm used to giving my all, and expect to kick ass each time I work out, but sometimes you just gotta keep swimming.
